For the past two weeks, I have felt extremely frustrated. It started with work, and then it just seemed to sneak its way into all other aspects of my life- school, friends, family…
So, I am a believer that you are completely in control of your own emotions, so I kept thinking: why can’t I just shake the frustration and move on? I think that it was a continuous feeling for me because once I was able to get through one frustration, another seemed to come up. I felt extremely confused on how to handle the emotion because I really couldn’t tell whether I wanted to punch something, or whether I needed a good cry. What ended up happening was- I had to eventually confront all of the issues head on and talk them out, or work them out with myself. A big weight was lifted off of my shoulder, and now I am just dealing with making my body less tense.
Whenever I have a lot of a negative emotion running through me, my body gets SO incredibly tense. My jaw hurts, my back kills, and I will get a headache. I broke my back when I was in high school, so I deal with chronic back pain every day because I have developed multiple other issues because of it. When I feel any type of negative emotion strongly, I can feel it. I will go get a massage or do a long stretch session to try and alleviate some of the pain and discomfort that I feel. I also got a mat for my birthday from one of my friends that works to try and lessen back and neck pain. I have used it a few times now this week and it has been a game changer! It has really helped me. I always love hearing about new ways to help deal with back pain.
I hold the most tension in my jaw and my neck though. I find myself clenching my teeth whenever I am frustrated or really anxious. It makes it difficult to eat anything but soft foods because chewing just makes the pain so much worse. Some ways that I have lessened the discomfort is by eating a softer diet. About a year and a half ago I got an infection in my stomach and had to be on a liquid diet for about 3 months and although that really sucked, it helped my jaw so much. So many of my TMJ symptoms were eliminated because I was never actually chewing any food. It was amazing… But I will say… I’ll take the discomfort over a liquid diet again any day. It was not ideal. I LOVE food.
Back to being frustrated… it was not an ideal couple of weeks, but that is life. I am doing my best to take it one day at a time, and even a few minutes at a time. Seeing positivity, or listening to it (in podcasts that I listen to) really helps to put everything into perspective. I feel better and feel like I have a better handle on my emotions when I read or listen to something that is inspiring. I do have to say I have felt more motivated these past few days because of it.
One day at a time.